3.08.2010

for the record...

...i haven't given up a single dream.



and sometimes, those who matter, do mind.

3.01.2010

Remember Me? Yeah, I haven't blogged since JUNE!

eeek. I am embarrassed to even call this my blog anymore! But, hopefully I'll gain some consistency in my crazy-busy life. My roommate challenged me to "create something" once a week and I think that's a challenge I'd love to take. "Creating" a blog counts too, right?

So update since June. I live in an amazing house on Sullivans Island and have fallen in love with the island lifestyle - afternoon golf cart rides, supper on the screened porch, sitting in the sun with my roommates and a cold beer, sunday brunch at the street cafes and running along the beach. Not to mention I'm insanely grateful for three of God's blessings that have come in the form of my three roommates.

I work at MUSC, for the Office of Continuing Medical Education. It's under the umbrella of the Dean's Office for the College of Medicine. Lots of words - but it's a fun job, and I'm thankful to be on salary with benefits!!! I worked at Carolina Girls for a while, doing stationery and printing, which is really where my interest and passion is...but for now, I'm really enjoying MUSC :) Still not giving up on my dream of opening my own store one day!

I've been dating my "high school sweetheart" again - something which I would have never thought possible. To me, it just goes to show God's divinity over our tiny little human desires. He knew 8 years ago that David and I had to grow up - separately - and had things to learn and experience on our own. So, here we are today, crazy about each other as we were then - just a little more mature. I hope we never completely mature though....don't want to be boring! :) So every day is exciting all over again. The way I see it is that we're the lucky ones...we get to fall in love twice! :)

I'm still doing high school ministry at First Baptist - and can't explain how much I learn through these high school girls (and guys!) I have SO much fun goofing off and talking about Jesus with them. Great, great group of kids. I'm also still a part of the worship band - but for LifePark, the new campus of First Baptist. I'm amazed at how this body has grown in the past year! We actually move into our new building this week!! It's going to be amazing.

Enough for now - I'm off to clean house, do laundry, and do some work. (See, life's not all fun & games on an island!)

PEACE & BLESSINGS
Court


p. s. but speaking of Creating - this is what I created this weekend - so if you know anyone who needs calligraphy, send them my way!!!

6.20.2009

Mom for a minute

I feel like my life has hit the fast forward button. Here I sit in a beautiful house, with three kids, three cats, a dog, and a Honda Mini-van. I've driven carpool, hosted a sleep-over, played "cat-opoly" (one too many times if you ask me...), dino-opoly, clemson-opoly, and disney-opoly. Yes, those are real games. I've cooked dinner, made breakfasts, cut the video games off, cut them off again a few hours later...this list is endless. I've seen a disney movie (UP - so great!), rented another disney movie, gone to the skate park...and even been Father's Day shopping! I've woken up before the kids to have enough time to shower before they get up, and waited up late for one to come home last night, before I could go to bed. I've juggled one kid at Vacation Bible School, one having band practice, and one arriving home from a week-long sleep away camp. We've gone to sonic, wal-mart, hollywood video, and the movies. And, I found out the six year old has a girlfriend. And she kissed him on the lips....because "she just wanted money". (Direct quote from said six year old, when asked why a girl was kissing him... Man, girls are learning early these days!) Miraculously, I actually found time for a job interview and to read about 1/3 of My Sister's Keeper... gotta have some alone time.

All in 3 days. I have a tremendous new found appreciation, and almost idol-worship of mothers of multiple children! I'm wiped out after babysitting/housesitting for what seems like five minutes, as compared to a lifetime. The difference is, tomorrow I'll leave, and go back to doing normal 22 year old stuff. I've been taking care of my three favorite children in the world, The Newitt kids, whom I've watched grow from a 2 year old and a newborn sister, to a 13 year old boy with a heart of gold, an 11 year old fiery freckle-faced girl, and a 6 year old full of innocent joy. Drew, Patsy, and Peter will always be my favorites! I haven't been able to spend much time with them, since I've been at school for so long, but now that I've spent the last three days living and taking care of them, I realize how much I love these children. And this family! Scott (aka "The Firefly guy") and Trisha have always been like second parents to me, and it's quite encouraging to have such a family grounded in the Lord and their church so close to my heart. It's really been a joy to be here!

That said, it's been a great time to think about growing up while I've been here! Lately, I've been so frustrated with where I'm at in life. I'm looking for apartments, but it all seems too expensive. Then I was really hoping for a certain job in Charlotte, but didn't get it. I'm just trying to make ends meet, but not really utilizing my degree that I worked so hard for. And, I can't lie and say it doesn't bother me a bit that I'm completely single, because there is that bug in my ear when someone I know gets engaged (or married) like, every other day. Ok, maybe not that often, but it feels close! And contrary to popular belief, it does kinda get old hearing "So, who are you dating these days?" and I respond with the ever-faithful "Oh, no one. Boys are trouble", in which I'm seemingly a confident single gal. I am, but I'm also always up for meeting prince charming. :) Thus, the cards haven't seemed to fall right these past few weeks. However, these past few days of "playing mom" have helped me look at my life from a different angle.

It hit me when we went to the movies. I took Peter, the six year old ladies man, to see UP. The intro jingle that plays for all disney movies (You know, when they're drawing the castle in the beginning) began to play, and I'm not lying, I got chills. It was a moment of joy, where I remembered hearing that jingle growing up. For a minute, I was little again. I know that sounds so silly, but it was nice to remember what it felt like to have a child-like heart. And seeing Peter's genuine joy in experiencing life, and playing games, and giggling, and just being a kid, has made me see in these past few days how good life is supposed to be. Granted, I'm not six, and I have responsibilities, it's been nice to steal away from worries and spend time with some great kids. There were also several other enlightening moments throughout the past few days, but I already feel this post is pretty long...I'd be here all night.

Back to reality, all the money I earned on this wonderful sabbatical from reality went straight to Park West Veterinary Clinic today. Charlie got sick, and had to go get an IV and special food. Dollar earned, dollar spent - Easy come, easy go. So I really felt like a mom, when I had hard earned money, which went straight to my "child" (for all intensive purposes). Oh well, he's worth every penny, and to tell ya the truth, I earned a lot more than just money this weekend. I earned a flashback to childhood bliss, a taste of being a mother of three, and a reunion with the sweetest children God could give. It's been refreshing.

Drink some Firefly, and be blessed :)


"Jesus said, 'Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." Matthew 19:14

So, this was not taken in 2003...but here's Drew, Patsy, and Peter!

5.19.2009

Never Say Never...stuck in paradise.

Wow! So much has happened in the past week & 1/2...I feel like I haven't had time to breathe! Everyone's asking me how it feels to be a college grad, and truth is, it feels about the same. Well, for now. I know when I get that first health insurance bill, or car insurance bill... I'll definitely feel it! But for now, I've just moved back in with the parents, so I just feel like I'm home on another vacation from Clemson. Reality will set in eventually, and I kinda wish it would. Not that I want to pay bills, but I just feel kinda stuck in my life right now. I would love to move out and live on my own, but that requires a job.... something I'm tirelessly searching for. I was reminded by a sweet sister the other night at worship practice that it may be easy to blame the economy for no job, but that really God's waiting to place me where He needs me. I'm just doing all I can to find this place. I'm trying to let that bring me peace, but in a world that's go go go, it's hard to slow down and trust.... but I'll get there.

As for the title of the blog, this has sort of become my motto recently! Never say never. No matter how cliche, I'm finding the truth in it! I always said I'd never move back in with my parents after graduation. I said I was going to move to NYC, and get a job there and live for a few years. But here I am, sitting at the kitchen table in my parents house, 12:30 on a cloudy Tuesday, and jobless. I'm very thankful to have such a supportive family (and amazing house in Charleston!) to come home to, but like any 22 year old, it's not the optimal choice! Don't get me wrong, I get along with my family great, and love them immensely, and have enjoyed seeing them so much, but I just feel like I got my wings clipped a bit. How can I do great things, or start my own company, or move to NYC, when I can't even afford to move out of my parents house? Granted, I've only been here a little over a week, but already I feel stuck. So currently, I think God is teaching me patience, and trying to wrench some trust out of me! Trust that He'll move me when He wants to- Trust enough to void my plans and reach for His. And I do believe that somewhere His plans do mesh with mine, or else I wouldn't have these desires. (He tells us so through Psalm 37:4 - "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.") So prayers for God to reveal these plans would be greatly appreciated :) Long story short, never say you'll never move back in with your parents...because you just might.

Also, Never say never about friendships and relationships. I've learned recently that it is possible to forgive but not forget. I thought I could never, ever forgive this person, but crossed paths with them recently, and realized I had forgiven them. I realized I let all the mess go a long time ago. I'll never forget the mess they made, but don't hold it against them any more. Oh, to be free of that burden is a wonderful feeling. So, never say you'll never speak to someone again....because you just might.

Also, my parents put our house on the market. I love this house, and thought we'd have it forever. This kinda relates to my last post about materialism. Truth is, my parents don't need this monstrous house for just them and my little sister (I'm already counting me out of the scenario...in hopes of SOON having an apartment). It just doesn't make sense anymore. Sure, it's great for parties, and it's so beautiful, and welcoming, and home... but at the end of the day, it's just a house. My family will stay the same after it's gone. If living a simpler, happier life means getting rid of the status symbol that this beautiful house has become, then I say good riddance. I LOVE this house - the porch, the creaky steps, my yellow bedroom, the great yard - but the best part about it is the memories made on this porch, in my yellow bedroom, and in this great yard, and those parts of this house - the intangibles - will move with us. They won't be left behind with the house, and I think that makes it so much easier to leave behind. Like I said, I thought we'd never move from this house, but God has begun to loosen my family's grip on this piece of materialistic paradise, and it's a good step of faith. Good things will come! Again, never say you'll never leave somewhere...because you just might.

I'm sure there's a million other "nevers" I've said - but these are the most prominent in my life these days, and I thought I should share :). So prayers for trust in finding a job, wisdom with old friendships, and peace about moving are greatly accepted!

Grace and Peace.

4.27.2009

100 songs you need to listen to!

so i was backing up my iTunes library, and i kept finding myself saying "Oh that's a great song! i forgot i had that one!" so...it inspired a list of my 100 favorite songs of all time. Not in any order, just the order that they came into my head. :) I know there's some i forgot too. feedback and suggestions welcome :)

1. Hallelujah - Jeff Buckley
2. What If You - Joshua Radin
3. Mexico - Jump, Little Children
4. Hosanna - Hillsong United
5. Just for Now - Imogen Heap
6. Your Love is Extravagant - Casting Crowns
7. At Last - Etta James
8. Forever and Ever Amen - Randy Travis
9. The Way You Look Tonight - Frank Sinatra
10. Everything - Lifehouse
11. Measure of Beauty - Lindsey Kane
12. Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Israel Kamikawiwole
13. Turn Your Lights Down Low - Bob Marley (Colbie Caillat also does a really great cover...)
14. Raining on Sunday - Keith Urban
15. Answer - Sarah Mclachlan
16. Heavenly Day - Patty Griffin
17. Have a Little Faith in Me - John Hiatt
18. Up to the Mountain - Kelly Clarkson's version
19. Let It Be - The Beatles
20. By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North
21. The General - Dispatch
22. Southern Girl - Amos Lee
23. O Magnum Mysterium - Morten Lauridsen
24. Feels Like Home - Chantal Kreviazuk
25. Canon in D - Johann Pachelbel
26. Clair de Lune - Claude Debussy
27. Picture This - Jim Brickman
28. Amazing Grace - John Newton (Il Divo's version)
29. Carried to the Table - Leeland
30. Tears of the Saints - Leeland
31. Home - Michael Buble
32. Remember When It Rained - Josh Groban
33. Be Thou My Vision - Ginny Owens
34. World on Fire - Sarah McLachlan
35. Someone Somewhere - Jason Reeves
36. One Love - Bob Marley
37. Untitled Hymn - Chris Rice
38. On a Night Like This - Dave Barnes
39. Gravity - Sarah Bareilles
40. Jesus and Gravity - Dolly Parton
41. Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve
42. World Spins Madly On - The Weepies
43. California - Phantom Planet
44. I Don't Want to Wait - Paula Cole (tribute to my Dawson's Creek fanatic period...)
45. To Make You Feel my Love - Garth Brooks
46. Friends in Low Places - Garth Brooks
47. Kiss Me - Sixpence None the Richer
48. 525,600 Minutes - RENT
49. Angel of Music - Andrew Lloyd Weber
50. By The Way That They Dance - Jump, Little Children
51. Brown Eyed Girl - Van Morrison
52. Maybe I'm Amazed - Jem
53. Cannonball - Damien Rice
54. This Year's Love - Damien Rice
55. She's Only Happy in the Sun - Ben Harper
56. My Hands - Jewel
57. Better Together - Jack Johnson
58. Alone - Heart (my karaoke jam)
59. Say - John Mayer
60. Fancy - Reba McEntire
61. Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
62. The Reason Why - Rachael Yamagata
63. To Be Alone With You - Sufjan Stevens
64. All I Ask of You - Andrew Lloyd Weber
65. La Vie En Rose - Louis Armstrong
66. The Luckiest - Ben Folds
67. Rain - Patty Griffin
68. Amber - 311
69. Hey Girl - OAR
70. Swing Life Away - Rise Against
71. Collie Man - Slightly Stoopid
72. Dancin' In the Moonlight - Toploader
73. Dare You to Move - Switchfoot
74. With My Own Two Hands - Jack Johnson w/ Ben Harper
75. When The Rain Comes - Third Day
76. Soul Meets Body - Death Cab for Cutie
77. He Walked on Water - Randy Travis
78. Butterfly Kisses - Bob Carlisle
79. Everything - Michael Buble
80. Come Away With Me - Norah Jones
81. September Song - Willie Nelson
82. Unchained Melody - Willie Nelson
83. Whatcha Know About - Donovan Frankenreiter
84. Shadowlands - Ryan Adams
85. Wonderwall - Ryan Adams
86. Say Goodnight, Not Goodbye - Chantal Kreviazuk
87. Life in a Northern Town - Sugarland ft. Little Big Town
88. Let Me Sign - Robert Pattinson
88. Smile - Nat King Cole
89. Meaning - Gavin Degraw
90. Somebody Like You - Keith Urban
91. Copper Kettle - Jump, Little Children
92. Let Her Cry - Hootie & the Blowfish
93. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
94. Your Winter - Sister Hazel
95. Beautiful Disaster (Live Version) - Kelly Clarkson
96. Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
97. Still - Matt Nathanson
98. I Rescued You - Emily Lynch
99. Grace's Amazing Hands - Dave Barnes
100. My Huckleberry Friend - Audrey Hepburn

4.26.2009

It's a dog's life...

Just a few pics from my phone describing why it's great to be a dog!
At least Charlie thinks so :)


You can snuggle with just about anybody. (Even Kitty...)



Grandpa spoils you...big time!



You're still cute when you get bad haircuts.



You get to sleep while mom gets to do homework.



You can actually get really good sleep while mom does homework.



You can go on trips and never even get out of your bed.



Actually, you can go on trips and take your whole house.



Playing in the snow never gets old.



It's ok to pass out on the table after one too many glasses of wine. (Just teasing...Charlie's not 21!)



You can still be a Clemson fan!

4.18.2009

i'm back...

wow! hard to believe its been a month since i've posted! school has been crazier than i could imagine, and truthfully i have about a million things i should be working on right now rather than this. but i need some chill out, saturday morning, do-whatever-i-want time :).

I should say SO much has happened since last posting...and I definitely don't have room in a blog to get to it all. Spring Break, High School Retreat, Bridge Run, Easter, School, more School, job search, etc. But, I'll just say God has proven Sovereign through it all, and I'm still finding that I need Him and His grace more today than I did yesterday, and the day before, and the day before...you get it.

There have been great ups, and crushing lows in the past month surrounding me and my family, but through it all, God has proven faithful. He will not let us be moved when we seek His face and trust His plan for taking care of us. I would say for sure that God has wrenched from my hands the need for worldly things. My need for expensive clothes, or driving a nice car, even having to live in the biggest house. I've been reminded that while I have these things, He can take them at any moment. If for one day my faith and pride wavers from pride in being His daughter to pride in worldly position and possessions, I am lost. So I'm working on ridding myself of material pride and gaining eternal pride in Christ.


I was running out by the Lake a few weeks ago (something I'm SURE to miss once I graduate and leave Clemson) at sunset. I try to time it just right, because it is so beautiful. Anyways, when I'm running one direction across the dyke my back is to the sunset so I can't see it. But when I got to the end and turned around that day, I was literally stopped in my tracks, amazed at the beautiful display of artwork above me! It was indescribably beautiful, the sky was orange and purple (proof that God's a Tiger!) and a rainbow of colors that no artist could ever duplicate. I was held captive. It was a gorgeous reminder that God's beauty is on display for us to see...we just have to take time to see it. I'm working on this too :).

Anyway, thats enough for one morning...I'm off to enjoy this beautiful day by the pool with my book. I'm almost done with the twilight series...gladly taking book suggestions for when I'm done! :)


MUCHO amor, mis amigos.